Together As One.

So there's only a few days until TAO! Yeeeee. I'm so happpy. Last time I went to a rave was HARD Mansion Party. But it reaally wasn't a party, more like a good ass rave. It's was gooooood. And then TAO is gonna come up. Yeeeson. Then ima go to How Sweet It Is, with Ricky and them for his birthday. And then EDC, I might go with Joyce, if she passes her test. Lol. I know she's determined to passed that test. The countdown begins today for the TAO day. 3 MORE DAYS! WOOOOH!

Whattta week.

I had a busy ass weeeeek! Monday: I went to the mall with Kyle. Tuesday: I went to the mall with everyone. Cracckkkin' ! Wednesday: Christmas Eve. Thursday: Christmas: All I seriously did was sit in front of computer talking to Kyle alll day. Friday: Kyle's coming over. Fuuck, I;ve never been that busy in entire life. But saall goood. Christmas was good. So goood. I got some clothes, and a straightner, and 25 dollars. -____-x Fuck You RJ, and you 600 dollars. But my money is for YogurtLand, food, and get my eyebrows done. So it's already gone. And today, no one is home, yeeeee. Just me and my brother. Well, my aunt oo, but she's gonna be gone, and my brother is 7. So i dont think he cares for anything but Call Of Duty World of Wars, and Guitar Hero. So basically I got all the time I want today for myself. Although everyone went to go snowboarding and Catalina, I would've like to gone, or at least be asked. But saall good. Today's gonna be goood.

Mall Craccccckiiin'!

We were deeep as fuuck today. Well, IDK, but it sure did seem alot. Ima list a shitload of names; Joana, Dyesa, Kris, Ricky, Linh, Josh, Nolan, JonJon, Mikey, GEE, Steven, Kevin, Ryan, Ravish, Nolan, Josh (from Artesia), Terry, Ken, and alottta other people. It was fuun. But I sorta left early. But once I heard Joana's laugh- I know this is gonna sound corny but- But I felt warm, and that it was right visiting her. No homo or anything, but like she didn't give up on me when everybody else did, IN 8TH GRADE! Bestiee, 110905, fsho. I lavvvvv you Joana Marie Dadia. Once again, no homo. -___-x And then yesterday I had fuun to. I went to the mall with Kyle Ono. I've never realized how boring the mall was until yesterday, but I still went today. -___-x But we watch Four Christmases. There were some parts that were pretty funny, but over all, it turned out pretty gay, and boring at the end. In fact! S boring, Kyle was yawning throughout our whole date. I was different yesterday though. Not Cary. Well tomorow is Christmas Eve, yeeeeee. Ima get fat over Break. Whatevvva, niggga. Don't like yo girls fat? Succck my diiiiick, bitch. Happy Holidays! (:)

Winter Break.

I've got many things plan for a closing of a perfect year. And a tradition when the new year starts. New year mean new start right? New start it is. I stopped smoking for the sake of myself. And I don't need guys in my life, so errrthaangs all goood. Haha.I'm so glad school is finally done for the year! But I still have one big project that's like basically my whole freaking grade for the first semester. Like I have to make an ending for this movie called THX 1138. It doesn't even sound cool. But it's okay, because the people in my group are pretty cool. Rich: Maaah baaad Falcon Master 3. Hahaha. Kevin: I barely know him, and hes not on my bad side, so he's cool. Simon: Eye candy. (; Lol. Nate: I love Nate, so everything is good so far. It does get better then get worse.

It's tempting.

So whatevaa, I don't have a date for Formal anymore. The jerk talked to me and he so isn't worth me wanting his friendship. Okaay, so I don't have an guy issues. Idgafuuuuck about guys. There is a lotta drama this year. It's ridiculous. So many changes, so many bad habits. It's so tempting to make myself do all those bad habits. But there are some people I want in my life. And I'm not gonna let one thing ruin that. It's short today.

Nights to Remember.

So as everything turns out I am not going to Gah'rs Winter Formal. Yeaaah, my date/ ex friend, is a fucking ass whose, I guess, changed his ways, and decided to forget everything that was good about him. I don't understand. He had so many good things going for him, and he meets a bitch and BAM! He's gone. Oh well, I'm tired of doing what he says, and trying my all to make our friendship work from a far distant. Fuuuck a biitch! Lol, I'm happy without him anyway. Past is past right? So now I'm going to Artesia's Winter Formal, with Felicia, and some reaally cute guy, but just for the pictures. I'm kinda excited because it's on a yacht. A MOTHA FCKING YACHT! And our school gets to go to the Discovery Science Center. But I am gonna go to Gahr's Sadies, and I've got the perfect guy, lol. Goood friends though, so saaall goood. And since I'm trying to quit bad habits, Ima chill with Hanny, Felicia, Shawna, and their dates, and my date. Because in 20 years or so, Ima look at the pictures and it's gonna be like dammnn, I had a goood time.

A greater experience.

So for the past two days I have been studying alot. Alot of projects right now, but they are group or partner projects. After school, I've been going to Cerritos High School to go with my friends to watch their practice for a performance they had. I was planning on like a month to go ad support my friends. But a last minute thing came up, and I went to a basketball game. And when I got there, I totally forgot I HATE BASKETBALL! But then I remembered why I went, to cheer on Philip. IDK, theres something about you Philip. A friend I just can't let go of, no matter the distance. Haha, thats cuute. But when I went to the game, I saw Paul, and met two other people. Coool, coool. And like the end of the first quarter like 2 secinds remaining, I saw Philip make a basket. I seen you do a couple good shots, but I left early. I hope oyu heard me cheering for you, because I embarassed myself for you. PLUS! I didn't go to a performance because of you. But saaall goood, though. It was nice seeing you.

The End.

Today they declared that LIFE was over. I was reaally sad about everything. In my eyes LIFE was something different. Something more than BAWP, another group, it was a sign of family. I mean no disrespect to any of my brothers or anything, but instead of just dropping it like that we coulda have talken about it. Instead of just being pissed and and smiling acting like nothing happened, we shoulda have just said what was on our mind. When JonJon just said, Cary, LIFE is over, I was like WTF?! I could see in some of my brothers eyes that they were totally bummed. Because LIFE isn't something you just drop like that. And I seriously wanna try my all to get it back together. It wasn't just a group of friends we met, its my family, our family. I'm sure of it. Im not gonna let it end, not yet.

Lately.

Everything is so goood in my life. My grades are so much more better than last year. I think my inspiration is Joshua. Lool! I'm not even kidding. I hang out with LIFE everday. LIFE is a group of my friends. I'm th eonly girl, and I love it, not because I'm a hoe or anything, I just don't get along with girls. And the more I kick it with LIFE, the more I act like a boy. -____-x I don't make alotta new friends anymore. But I like it that way, I got all I want. But they're sorta protective of me because of my past, which ain't so good. But I could understand where they come from, I'm not the best perosn out there. They're brothaaaas from anothaaa mothaaa. And like my birthday just passes, (it was so goooood!) But Felicia from Artesia got me Jeffrey. I was happy to see him. But guys are such a waste of time. But anyway, break is coming up! WOOOOH! I got plans to make Jeffre's birthday great. (:

Boys, Boys.

OHHHH! FUUUUN! Yeah, the one thing that never stops drama. So I got 3 boys I'm interested in. All are very nice. Let's start off with their description. I won't say names, but if they read this, they will know who they are. 1.) We never really talked in a person, well once, but that was nothing. I would kill to spend some time with him. He's just the high school crush. But for now, we stand as high school peers, who don't even talk. 2.) The nicest mexican ever. Hes reallly nice to me. But one problem, he has a girlfriend, and continues to lead me on. 3.) Not really much to say about him, except for hes laaaaaaammme, and maybe even gay. DEAD SERIOUS! But we just gottta see how this turns out. Which one will I absoluetly go for.

Sophmore Year.

New Year. New friends. Everything changes over the summer. Freshmen year was all fine and dandy, until some stupid shit comes along. Each year, is a new set of drama, classes, and people. Maybe everything will turn out okay when everybody remembers the importance of our high school year. To stick by each other. But hey things happen for a reason. The key to high school: Drug-affilated, stress, drama, boys, sports, and everything else. Things will eventually work out.