Month.

It's been like a month. Nothing has changed reaally though. No need to update on my life. Same old boyfriend for like 4 months now. Swim season is just about over, summer is here. Stresss free. Just alotta final projects. Can you believe it, we're Juniors now. Then Seniors, then we're on our own.

Swim.

Shiiiit. I've been really freaking busy lately. Swim season has been pretty hecktic. Our girl coach has been being a bitch because we do really good in meets but suck asshole in practice. So shes been working us out beyond limits. But I'm gettting better. It's just my endurance. FUCK IT. Swim has made me meet new amazing people. I love it. Goood life.

haaaye giiirl haaaye!

Dayuum. I'ma busy bee. This second semester reallly got to me. But the thing that helps me keep going is my boyfriend. I'm not only doing it for me, but for him too. Heres a condense version: Kyle's a dumbass and itsn't slick. Lol, but still hes my BOY! Ha. He always say, "Cary, you should check out yo boy. Check out yo. Check yo boy out Cary." Lol. Whatta dumb fucker. Anyway, now that swim season has started I don't have a 6th period I go to CHS alot. All I see are a bunch of Korean fuckers, but saall good. But when I go to swim practice, it's hellla hectic. Freaal though, it's no easy shit to do. I sure wish it was though. I missed my first swim meet to go to a basketball CIF game. We fucking lost. Fuck Harvard WestLake. They had a full grown male on their team. I'm not kidding. He was like 6'7. Thighs big as my body, and dunked so easily. We still made it though. And like our VP was like no saying airbaaal, or boo. And we didnt so when the other team started saying air ball we were like wtf. Whatever, I hope they feel guilty for winning as cheaters. Anywaay, next swim meet is on Thursday. I suck but it's all about experience.

New everything.

This week I've been totally acting bitchy. And I take out all my anger at my boyfriend. I don't mean too, it's just at the end of the day I'm exhausted and he's the last person I end my night with. But he deals with it and understands, so I guess thats cool. Well Sadies, IDK. Like it's complicated. I wanna go, but not if it takes all this complication. And Ima dumb bitch, I fucking hate Friendship Park. But I get off of probation soon, I'm suuper excited for that.

BUST!

BUST! I HATE FRIENDSHIP PARK! Life sucks. UGH! I hate having a boyfriend. I have having friends. I hate school. I hate my social life. I'm just a fucking angry little girl.

Valentine's Day.

OH MAAAN! IS LOVE IN THE AIR?! LOL! This Valentine's Day didn't turn out like I wanted. But still I am so happy that everything turned out great. My boyfriend couldn't get out, so we were webcamming and he made a sign that said, "Cary, will you be my valentine?" It was suuper cuute. PLUS! For Valentine's Day, I decorated his locker, which I think it cute because we go to different schools. Valentine's Day turned out just fine. My sister goes to blogspot called iGossip. WTF?! Middle schoolers tryna be like Gossip Girl. PUAHAH! That shit makes me laugh. I know my sister beefs it with alotta people, and I got her back, like I've always have before. I've even gotten her outta trouble with a breeezy tryna fight her. But maaan, if I ever heard Bianca's name n that. IDGAF. Happy Valentine's Day though.

2nd Semester.

It's just as hard as the end of the first semester. I'm tryna do all my work now, so I don't have to stress at the end of the semester on how I'm gonna get all my credits. I'm already behind by like 15. But I'm trying. Trying to make my dad proud. So he can say to his low life friends, that his daughter is graduating high school, and isn't gang- affiliated. That she accomplish something that most of them probably haven't. I want to take care of him when he grows up, so when he's ready, he smiles. But 2nd semester is my time. I'm trying to get involved in school, alot more than I was last year. Support my school as much as I can. HAHA! I have a long list on how I want to TRY, and yet it still needs to be done. But so far I've been doing good on accomplishing my trying goals. Like for one: I'm joining the swim team. And will be on it this starting Tuesday. I'm joining Key Club. And so far my grades are good. I just won't have time for my baaaaby. And friends. But it's a sacrifice.

It's about time.

Everything is in it's place. I mean finals are finally over. My main concern is gaining lost sleep. This weekend I've been getting enough of it. Ima try to update more. But soon I'm gonna join swim, so I might be a little busy. Like once I get off of probation my life will be so much easier. And it turns out that I am not going to Cerritos Sadies. Im finnna go t Gahr's Sadies. Lol. Neon Lights. But for right now, there's no drama, I got my booooy! And everything is just so good, and I couldn't be any happier. But today I went to a wrestling match and Gahr owned the District Tournament. WE FUCKING OWN EVERYTHING! G-HIGH! And watch Gran Turino with Josh, Linh, and Kyle. I don't know why but everytime I get to chill with them, it's like a double date. And when I don't, it is just me and Kyle. But everything is fuuun, and goood. Right now, I am living the good life. Life couldn't be any better.

Happy Girl.

So lately, life has been so good to me. I mean, honestly, I can say I am truly happy right now. Except for the fact that Boxcuttuhz freaking lost. I think the only reason why the bottom two were eliminated because of there style of dance. Hip Hop. For the past two season it's been hip hop. Jabbowockeez was choreo, and Super Crew were bboys. But I was examining the Boxxcuttuhz for the second the second time. And Lydia, OMG! Like the choreo was so goood, and like she didn't have enough energy and like the guys were so sychronized except for her. But it was that stupid challenge that made them go home. I agree with Brett. Strikers All Star killlllled it! But anyway, my main issue is like grades. Like we have this huge Film Studies project to due on Wednesday. And we haven't started filming at all. And our plan was Sunday, Monday and editing Tuesday. But tomorrow which is Sunday is Chinese New Year. 2/5 of us are Chinese. So that's a problem. But once final week is over. I am gonna be so relieved and make sure I work out throughout the whole 2nd semester so I don't have to stress this much towards the end of the year and go to summer school.

FINALS!

Are almost fucking over! YEEEES! I mean it hasn't even started yet but the semester is coming to an end. I hate the feeling of having to stress over stupid shit. And plus! My film studies project is due soon! I mean we barely started it but I'm glad I don't have to deal with my group memners/ They aren't serious about it. I am. Lately, I've been having to balance, friends, family, school, and a guy. I mean my schedule isn't like totaally flexible but I can do it just for a bit longer. And then tomorrow, Ima watch PHILIP KIM #25 play basketball for Cerritos High School. Like when my friend told me I was going, I was like yeeee! I getta see Philip. Lol. But everythaaangs goood.

ABDC Season 3!

Chyeeeeaah! It's finally back on. I was pretty upset about last season. Supercrew!? Reaallly?! SoReal Cru, yeeeah! But this season there is such a variety of dances. And some the crew are from reaally close to us. Like Quest Dance Crew. I remember when I was in middle school, I used to go there everyday. It's so nice to see people from where I live show that they got talent, and mad talent. And Boxcuttuhz! They're good. But wtf. They made the bottom two. BS! Lydia Paek is so talented. I remember I went to a party the Vicious Party and when the party got raided I was hanging out with some Cypress guys. And so we ran to Towne Center and she was there to pick up her brother. She's good. In Season 2, Team Milinia, was alright. But this season they changed their music which I didn't really like, but they still goood! And ringmasters. WOOOAAAH! No comment on that one. Well. Happy MLK Day.

Finals!

Final week is coming up in less than 2 weeeks! And I still have to study a whole bunch, plus I gotta do some stupid ass film studies project. My group is freal laggin it. FUCK GAHR HIGH SCHOOOL! Plus, theres a snitch. Someone is ratting out all my homeboys. Gahr is getting whack as fuck. Whoever it is, geeeze. Beat a nigggas ass. Well fuck this.

WOOOW!

Ima loser. I don't get comments on my blogs. Whats the point of this? Hopefully people read it? UGH. Whatevaaaa. So this upcoming week, I have a reaally busy schedule, and might not have time to right. I'll try to make time. Monday: Ima hang out with Kyle. Tuesday: Cerritos Library to work on this big final for Film Studies. Wednesday & Thursday: Shoot our movie for Film Studies. And maybe Friday I'll do something for myself. Saturday: Ima throw a BBQ, and Sunday: Church. And just rest. I've been stressin over school. Too much. But I'm happy. Everyday I come home, do my homework, go on the computer, and by the end of the night I have a smile on my face, regardless if my day was bad or not. He makes me happy. Well Cerritos Sadies is coming up. And I have this way to ask Kyle, I just haven't had time. BUT I WILL! So basically, school, and that is up with me.

It's been a while.

I've been so caught up with school lately, I barely have time to do anything. I mean like it's the end of the semester and my grades suck ass. I reaally needa concentrate on my studies. I have 3 D's. 1 C-, and 2 B's. I KNOW RIGHT?! It makes me feel like an epic failure. Geeze, it makes me wanna stop hanging out with friends and make my mom proud. But all these good things have been happeneing to me at one time, and I don't wanna let any of them go, so Im tryna balance my my LIFE family, and friends, and boys, and schoool, and especially my family. It's so hard. But I know if I can handle all these things at once, as a high school student. I can be a strong leader in the real world when I'm much older. PLUS! I have this huuuuge project for Film Studies, and my group thinks they can just slack off and prosractinate. They seriously dont understand how much this final means. They are all seniors, so they think they know what they're doing. They probably do, but their habits and my habits are not forming together. It seems like I can't work with them. I seems like I can't work with anyone anymore. I have to be independent.

New Years, new you, new problems.

This year started out and good, not great like it did last year, so good. 1.) Because I had a deep conversation with my girlfriend Felicia Young. She not really my girlfriend but we call each other that. About this guy I used to like but he's totallly sprung over her, but shes too dumb, and confused, shes missing out on something great. I sorta got tear eyed. But I guess, it was my emotions. I sorta got jealous over the fact that he liked her so much, and how he started liking her, when I liked him and I introduced them. But I'm just happy shes happy. He's a good one, Felicia. 2.) So yesterday I went out and it was so fun, until I was uploading pictures into my computer and the videos were taking forevaaaa. So I pushed cancel without thinking that my upload on my pictures would stop. But it did, and I couldnt upload them because I already deleted them. FUUUUCK! But New Years' Day was goood. I got an old friendship back. And I'm glad we're friends again. And then this girl I had beef with tried to say Happy New Years, PUAHAH. Fuuck that. She made me go to STEP. ANd I told the guy I liked him and he told me he liked me tooo! (:

Happy New Year!

So 2008 was a good year. Very fun. I experimented alot, I mean alot. An ex boyfriend who changed my life for the good and bad, new and different people than I'm usually around, just everything was new for me. January, February, and March: I did not have a life. My life belonged to my boyfriend. I didn't actually have a life because of him, everyone in my enviorment could tell the relationship I was in was emotionally abused. April, May: Man, oh man. Carson. WOW! The funnest, baddest, yet regrettable 2 months in my life. So much drama, so much trouble. There as a boy for those two months. But Carson. June: I tried my best to get my grades up in a month. July: PARTY HARDY! Vicious Party crackkkkin! August: I had no life, my mom was on my nuts. Septmeber: The month I met new friends from my school. They didn't have a negative impact on me like Carson people did. I mean yeaah, I hung out with people my mom probably wouldnt approve of, but I leanred they were my family, my brothaaas. October: TWO WORDS!: HOUSE ARREST! But the month I was put into LIFE. November: Bad month. Alotta drama that month, alotta boy problems. But still it was whatevaa. December: A good month. I mean no doubt there were some problems. But I met new incredible people. Okay, new incredible person. Lol. I basically spent my whole Winter Break on him. But he's cool. He made me happier in the month of December. I ended my 2008 year with a happy ending. HAPPY NEW YEARS!