It's been a while.

I've been so caught up with school lately, I barely have time to do anything. I mean like it's the end of the semester and my grades suck ass. I reaally needa concentrate on my studies. I have 3 D's. 1 C-, and 2 B's. I KNOW RIGHT?! It makes me feel like an epic failure. Geeze, it makes me wanna stop hanging out with friends and make my mom proud. But all these good things have been happeneing to me at one time, and I don't wanna let any of them go, so Im tryna balance my my LIFE family, and friends, and boys, and schoool, and especially my family. It's so hard. But I know if I can handle all these things at once, as a high school student. I can be a strong leader in the real world when I'm much older. PLUS! I have this huuuuge project for Film Studies, and my group thinks they can just slack off and prosractinate. They seriously dont understand how much this final means. They are all seniors, so they think they know what they're doing. They probably do, but their habits and my habits are not forming together. It seems like I can't work with them. I seems like I can't work with anyone anymore. I have to be independent.